Lately, I feel like I can’t keep going, and I feel emptier than ever. Everything around me has collapsed, from my job, my family and friends, to my home and my life.
Every night I wonder when the pain will ever stop. I have been strong for so long and overcome every obstacle in my path, but I feel like I can’t do it anymore. Some people say that God tests my faith by pushing me to my limits. It feels like every fight I win is someone else’s round the corner or in the back of my mind.
But like a strong soldier you deliver me from hard fights, and I am still with you in the end, even through the worst times and darkest nights.
I feel so tired, I don’t know what to do next, I want to give up, but I don’t ask you to let me go. God, you do not ask me to “let go” of problems that are disappearing, and you do not ask me to let go of pain that is important to you.
You just ask me to give you the strength to carry on when I feel weak, and I know that these things make me stronger and more resilient.
There are many things in my life that just make me feel lost, and I need your support now. I will need a hand more than anything, but I need you, my God, for the support and love and support of my family.
My mind is troubled and my heart is aching, but I know that you are preparing me to be the person I must be. Dear God, give me the strength I needed and strengthen me on the days when I feel like giving up. I trust in your guidance and love and that I will trust you, my God. You gave me all strength I have to keep pushing and I’m so grateful for that.